Friday, January 27, 2006

From a Jihadist to a Human--part one

The following post is my testimony on how I converted out of the death-cult of Islam into Christianity. It was a very long journey which I undertook just to find the truth and I am happy that finally I did. I wanted to share this testimony publicly because I want people to know what Islam’s true colors are and to show what it's like being born in a Moslem family in Saudi Arabia. I feel I have a duty to do so too. I want to show how the horrors of Islam change people’s lives, break relationships and destroy homes—these are the experiences that might not be fully understood in the west. I hope my testimony helps save lives both spiritually and physically and in the meantime I hope I don’t get caught in Islam’s deadly embrace. You will know why I say that once you read this.

Part One

My journey from my birth in Islam to the one out of it is kind of strange and very long. It didn't all happen in one day – I didn't see a special light or anything to show me the way out of Islam. It took me almost four years of research and study to conclude I was on the wrong path. But the sad thing about it was that this path was so dear to me that I couldn't just shun it and start a new life. It was about changing everything I had lived for. Let me take you on a journey with me here through my life – I hope you do learn something – something that is very important for you to learn because if you ignore this – you put yourself in the same danger I am in right now.

This story starts with my birth in a Saudi hospital in Riyadh (Saudi Arabia's capital). I was born in late summer, 1985. The youngest of my father's children – completing his family – he was very happy upon my arrival into the world, and so was my mother. Right when I was born, my parents recited the Moslem 'call to prayer' (this is an Islamic practice) – 'Allah is great...there is no god beside Allah and Mohammed is his apostle...' – and from that moment on I was a Moslem. I was supposed to be brought up as a Moslem – my parents were to teach me all the Moslem values and when of the right age – I was supposed to live my life according to them. My parents of course took the challenge because it was their religious duty. I was named – according to the Islamic custom – on the 7th day of my life.

Since I don't remember almost anything about my infancy (of course no normal human ever does) – I am going to start with my car accident which I remember like it was yesterday. It was in September – I had recently started school. I ran out to get in the car that morning; I jumped in the car but it started moving and I fell down – it ran over my right leg – it was broken. My dad rushed me to a hospital nearby and got a cast on my leg, and I came home. I was treated very well at the hospital but my mother wasn't satisfied. She called Pakistan (her native country, my dad's too and I hold its passport) and asked for some weird medicine with some Koranic verses written on it. She fed me that medicine day and night – after 3 months I was healed and she and my father attributed it to Allah's miracle and I was told to thank God for it every second of my life too because 'Allah' saved me. From that day on – I remember thinking everyday that nothing happens if Allah doesn't want it happening and so whatever I did – I said 'insha'Allah' (if Allah wills it) and this – I believed – made the thing to happen. I was taught that I was nothing but that Allah was doing everything. I was just another tool he was using – I was his slave and I had to submit myself to Allah's will. Being a Moslem – there is no question that I did all that.

16 comments:

Jason_Pappas said...

In those few paragraphs, you’ve already caught my attention. I await the next installment.

Always On Watch said...

Apostate,
Like Jason, I await the rest of your story. I like the title you've chosen!

John Sobieski said...

I wonder what you think of the Palestinians electing an Islamic centric violence driven government? To westerners, it is just inconcievable to become wedded to the Islamic doctrine, but if it is all you ever hear from childhood, breaking free is incredibly difficult. Plus Islam makes it bad for your health to leave or criticize.

The Anti-Jihadist said...

Apostate's just getting warmed up. Stay tuned.

Zaidi said...

Very funny and nice try.
Being a Pakistani, It only took 4 lines of your post for me to know u are not a Pakistani at all nor born in an Islamic family. Your english and reported accounts says it all.

I have no Idea why non muslims are putting up fake cases of conversions From Islam To some other religon. Am not saying it never happes, but why to post madeup stories for that?

Oh yes, u can delte this comment :)

The Anti-Jihadist said...

Zaidi, what a typical Muzzie, in denial, refusing to believe that anyone could ever want to leave the 'religion of peace'. And so quick to judge too. Took your reading of four sentences to make up your mind? So what took you so long? Obviously, everyone knows that Pakis cant write English worth a darn, of course, of course...why didn't I figure that out?

Thanks for straightening out us infidels. You've been a big help.

jerng said...

Just wanted to point out that technically, "jihad" just means struggle... in the holistic (all-rounded) sense, including 'spiritual struggles'.

So technically, we are all Jihadists, period. (We just happen to be in different modes of Jihad, if I'm not mistaken)

The Anti-Jihadist said...

The traditional Muslim view of Jihad, as supported by the Quran, Hadith, and centuries of Islamic jurisprudence, is as Holy War, just like Apostate says. "Peaceful inner struggle" is the taqiyya that the Muzzies and their apologists roll out for the ignorant infidels.

Avenging Apostate said...

Technically words could mean a lot of things. Thats why we go back in history to try to find out what they meant at the time when the religious texts were written - to understand what the people present there understood and how it was explained down through the ages based on that. We dont find the word Jihad used for spiritual struggle anywhere in the koran. i refer to the 'koranic jihad' as violent aggression because that's what it is and thats how it is presented in history (read at tabari for more details)

Elmer's Brother said...

Thank God and may He bless you. Prayers are being made on your behalf.

Larissa Jones said...

May I just add...

By putting up this blog - dissing Islam - is not the way to get people to turn to Christianity. If you think that your anger towards Islam is going to be quenched by doing this whole blog thing - well then you must be one big sick person. Well the account that this person has written seems really fake - it is written by a non-muslim - it does not seem real. First of all - it is written by someone who was born in Saudi Arabia - and we all know that Saudi's govt is America's buddy and they rely on each other. Islam is carried out to the extreme in Saudi - they dont even allow women to drive - Islam is not carried out properly in Saudi Arabia. And in addition to this - the person's background is Pakistani! What is this? you have made up some bullshit lie - ur just trying to gain some browny points for your website - trying to make ur lost cause seem legit. Both countries you have spoken about is seen universally as the 'terror' countries - how typical of you Americans.
I am a Christian who respects Islam. I have many Islamic friends and they are all lovely people. The Islam you talk about is usually represented by some fascist govt or official who is corrupt anyway. I know the everyday muslim and they are nothing like the way you guys describe them to be.
I think this whole website is totally wrong. You guys are just stooping lower than the extremists who actually do the bombings. SHAME on you all.

Avenging Apostate said...

Larissa Jones,

May I just add...

You added a crap load of leftist bullshit alright. 'Muslims are peaceful people, you are bad people, it is the west's fault, those who blow innocent children up in the malls and buses are freedom fighters, etc...' Yup, heard it before.

Islam is carried out to the extreme in Saudi - they dont even allow women to drive - Islam is not carried out properly in Saudi Arabia. And in addition to this - the person's background is Pakistani!

Really? Carried out to the extreme? Well, do you even know what Wahabbism is all about? Going back to the pure Islamic roots. Oh no, but that can't be true in your book. Islam can never ever do anything wrong. You leftists live sucking on the lies of Islam, dont you? Nevermind what happened throughout the 1400 year history of Islam and still continues. Oh I know, the US was responsible for Mohammed's death...blame it on them, blame it all!

Me being of a Pakistani descent, how's that a problem to you? What? Are you going to whine about my English like others did? Or are you going to spew your crappy argument 'Argh! Islam means peace, believe me! Argh! Argh!' Either way, I don't give a damn!

ur just trying to gain some browny points for your website

Really? That's weird since this website was there long before I came onto it as a member and was doing fine. Wow, your info sucks!

Both countries you have spoken about is seen universally as the 'terror' countries - how typical of you Americans.

Uh huh! Tell the Muslims that, since you claim to 'know them all'. Have you ever stepped into Pakistan, or Saudi Arabia...ever? Didn't your Muslim friends ever invite you to their holy sites? They're so friendly, I'd count on them doing atleast that.

I think this whole website is totally wrong.

You read the first part of my testimony and judge not only my whole testimony (which has 6 parts) but also the whole website based on just that? Actually I doubt you even read the first part.

Well, Larissa...Since you have added nothing new to any argument, whatsoever, in the whole world--you say SHAME ON US? Well SCREW YOU!

Larissa Jones said...

Look "Pakistani" boy! Wahhabism is not old Islam! It is an adaptation of what it really is! Only people who dont follow the Quran properly actually follow it. You are probably some Jewish kid living with his parents pretending to be a convert to try and create "change" in some "lost" souls. Well, guess what it aint working. You obviously dont know much about islam if you think all of Islam is like Wahhabism. It is actually is a fundamentalist islamic movement named after Muhammad al-Wahhab (1703-92). Which is way after the date when Islam was brought to the world.
FYI, I did read all 6 parts of ur so called "enlightenment" and it reeks of BULLSHIT! How the fuck did u hear gods voice - u think God will speak to someone as naive as you - and do u think that everyone is stupid enough to believe this bullshit?! I dont think so! I dont think i ever said I know all Muslims - it is you and ur stupid misguided friends who say that all Muslims are like this and like that! So Mister dont make assumptions as silly as that! Oh and even if you are Pakistani - I wouldnt blame u for converting as your country does not even know how to practice Islam properly! I wonder why not many people have seen the light since coming to this shitty website anyway! So, AVENGING Apostate SCREW YOURSELF! Wanker!

The Anti-Jihadist said...

Well, isnt Miss Potty mouth all nice.

I do sense a fairly distinct anti-semetic bent in our latest leftist troll. Well, I don't think AA has the honour of being Jewish. He converted to Christianity, not Judaism--Judaism doesn't actively seek out converts. I am not Jewish, either, nor is anyone else that blogs at PI.

I know and have tracked AA's IP address... and it tracks back to Dubai, UAE, just like he says. And no jews are allowed in nor live in the UAE. The rest of his story checks out, but I'm not going to waste my time on moonbats.

Shalom.

European Kafir said...

larissa jones:

you are neither christian, nor female.

your comments are so very cheap, so low... it`s incredible. your language is betraying you...

all i can say is: SHAME ON YOU!

EK

Avenging Apostate said...

Larissa Jones,

Wahhabism is not old Islam! It is an adaptation of what it really is! Only people who dont follow the Quran properly actually follow it...You obviously dont know much about islam if you think all of Islam is like Wahhabism. It is actually is a fundamentalist islamic movement named after Muhammad al-Wahhab (1703-92). Which is way after the date when Islam was brought to the world.

Hmm. And the ignorance!! Let's check some history here, shall we? Sheik Muhammad ibn Abd al Wahhab (1703–1792) who worked toward "reviving" the movement of Wahhabism (relax, I'm using modern terminology) was inspired by the work of Ibn Taymiya (1263 - 1328) who was a member of the Hanbali school of "fiqh" founded by Imam Ahmed ibn Hanbal (780 - 855) who was taught on fiqh by Imam al-Shafi (767 - 820), the founder of the school named after him. Imam al-Shafi was a disciple of Malik ibn Anas (715 - 796) who started the Maliki school of fiqh--he also compiled a collection of Hadith known as Al-Muwatta.

Woops, see the dates going way back into the beginning of Islam? Guess your research papers were compiled by a bunch of "Jews" who deceived you. Aww!

Anyway, the movement of Wahhabism is also known as "Salafism" named after the "Al-Salaf Al-Salih"--guess what that means! "The Righteous Predecessors", referring to the first three generations of Muslims that includes Mohammed and his companions.

FYI, I did read all 6 parts of ur so called "enlightenment" and it reeks of BULLSHIT! How the fuck did u hear gods voice - u think God will speak to someone as naive as you - and do u think that everyone is stupid enough to believe this bullshit?!

Right! You read the whole testimony, you think its all bullshit and the only thing you can point out is how you find it unacceptable that God would talk to someone "as naive as" me. Oh and God needs your permission to talk to someone? I am totally amazed!

Oh and even if you are Pakistani - I wouldnt blame u for converting as your country does not even know how to practice Islam properly!

Why don't you enlighten us all by telling us how to practice Islam properly? I am sure all the clerics and Muftis and even Mohammed would love to know what it is since they've been in the dark for so long.

You are probably some Jewish kid living with his parents pretending to be a convert to try and create "change" in some "lost" souls.

Ah! This is just a gem!! Showing our true colors, are we? Me a Jew? I wish! And why do I even need to live with my parents to think of something so evil against Islam? Don't you know that the only goal in a Jew's life is to somehow show that the poor, peaceful, loving Muslims are evil. I could be doing that even if I am living alone in a cave in Tibet. Hey! I am a Jew, what do you expect?