For as long as I can remember, I have lived among the people who have hated the Jews. For a long time I was one of them. Oh I hated the Jews, I wanted to kill them all. I wanted to be there for Muslims because I believed the Zionists were plotting to kill all the Muslims and take the world over. I grew up in a country (Saudi Arabia) where it was widely believed that The Protocols of the Elders of Zion was in fact a book written by Jewish Rabbis. They still believe it to this day.
Later I was educated in a country where people had more freedom of expression and whose language I understood (Pakistan). After listening to what they had to preach every Friday in the mosque, I grew to hate the Jews even more. Jews were the enemy not so much because of the Holy Land, but because they were the Jews. The Qur'an enlightened people all around me, who later enlightened me, that the Jews were inherently evil.
That has all changed for me--my hatred against the Jews has long since turned into love for them. But still, nothing has changed around me...well maybe it has. Where I live now (the UAE), not only Muslims, but Hindus, Christians, Buddhists, atheists, and even a supposedly peace-loving people from a social group called Art of Living, all hate the Jews. Their reason for their hatred is because the Jews are Jewish.
Since the commencement of Israel's war against Hezbollah, all I see around me is ever more Jew hatred--posters with photos of dead Lebanese children (alleged victims of 'Zionist atrocities') are featured prominently everywhere in Dubai, such as shopping malls and hospitals. Wherever I look, I see it--wherever I hear people talking, I hear words of hatred against the Jews. I try to look for the posters about the women and children who have died in Israel. But there is nothing about them, because all Jews have committed a crime, young and old alike. They have committed the crime of being Jewish.
It seems that I am the only one here who fully supports Israel and the Jews; that I am the only one who can see beyond the web of Muslim lies. How long am I going to sit back for and watch it all happen all around me? How long am I going keep hiding? How long am I willing to hear the chants 'Death to Israel, death to the Jews' without objecting to them? I ask myself these questions, but I can't answer them.
I am alone here. What difference can I make? I am afraid that if I side with the 'inherently evil' Jews, I will be cursed too, I will be hated along with them. I want to be loved by my friends, people who know me and my family. But then again, the same is true for the Jews, right? When I think how much they have given to the world, I want to do something for them too. I want to give them back for what they have done for me, and for the whole world.
But I am alone. I cannot turn to anyone to talk about what I think. I am afraid of being judged. I want to look good in the eyes of the world. But deep down, I know what I believe, I know the truth--and if I hide the truth, I am selfish and evil, like so many others around me are.
I can never make myself comfortable with the thought that many years from now, on my death-bed, regretting not saying a word against evil when I had a chance to, not taking the opportunity that could have changed the opinion of even one person about the Jews. I don't want to die with a guilty conscious. I want to die in peace. So I have decided to take a step further in helping the people I love.
After much thought and consideration, I have decided to talk about it and to discuss this hatred of the Jews starting this September. The venue is the food court, Knowledge Village, Dubai, UAE. Any anti-Semite is invited to sit with me at my table with my friends, and talk about this hatred openly and honestly with me. I cannot fight with money, and I cannot help the Jews with weapons. But talk I can and talk I will.